I have always had what I call a healthy self esteem. Despite being overweight since puberty (but was I though? like, my memory tells me I was chunky in high school but when I look back at pictures I don't see it), I've never felt, or at least never felt that I felt, less than … Continue reading Being fat, Fab 5, and living in tension
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Sometimes you can get what you want
When I was young, maybe in middle school, I remember telling my mom that I had prayed to God to give me patience. She said, "You don't want to do that." I asked, "Why not?" She said, "Because then God is going to give you a lot of opportunities to grow your patience." Last week … Continue reading Sometimes you can get what you want
F Words
It could be because I finished the fifth season of Grace and Frankie within the past 24 hours, or it could be the result of a series of revelations and realizations happening over the past 2 months. Whatever the reason, I find myself adopting a very “eff it” attitude. (I’m not effing it so much … Continue reading F Words
Easily Overwhelmed
I am easily overwhelmed by nature. Not like, being in nature overwhelms me - quite the opposite actually - but like, it is in my nature and comes naturally to me to be easily overwhelmed. Especially in situations where there is a lot of noise and people in a small space. I think it runs … Continue reading Easily Overwhelmed
Sorry Not Sorry
In December my family came to visit for Christmas. It was amazing. But it got off to a rocky start. The cabin they had rented had recently gone under some renovations, and the renovations weren't finished. It turned out okay in the end, but for the first 24 hours or so I fought the urge … Continue reading Sorry Not Sorry
I am not a failure
At the beginning of the month I had what I’m referring to as a breakdown. My version of a “breakdown” is characterized by an overwhelming and all consuming feeling of failure. Seemingly triggered by nothing in particular (although I’m suspecting pre-menstrual hormones might have something to do with the timing) I will start getting insecure … Continue reading I am not a failure
What We Remember
Over the past few days I read a book called Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah. It’s the story of a friendship that spans decades. The friends are two girls, then women, named Kate and Tully. Kate has a great family and modest goals. She wants to get married and have a family. She is suggestible … Continue reading What We Remember
