My first full time job out of college was as a Preschool English teacher at a bilingual Christian school in the Dominican Republic. My job was to go into each of the 6 preschool classrooms every day for 30 minutes and teach an English lesson. It was fun and exhausting and hard and awesome. The … Continue reading Having tattoos, being a balloon, and the wilderness
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Progress
Saturday is laundry day. Last night I was folding my clean clothes and putting them away when I got a whiff of cat pee. Cat pee is so potent and smells so bad. It was just before bed. I was tired and I nearly spiraled. // I recently finished watching Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (amazing musical show). … Continue reading Progress
Actual Living, Breathing Bachelors
Lately I've been seeing friends sharing on social media* that they are feeling frustrated with how little they have accomplished in their lives or are struggling to build the life they want. This is probably because I turned 30 just a couple months ago. We're all turning 30 and taking a bit look around and … Continue reading Actual Living, Breathing Bachelors
Being fat, Fab 5, and living in tension
I have always had what I call a healthy self esteem. Despite being overweight since puberty (but was I though? like, my memory tells me I was chunky in high school but when I look back at pictures I don't see it), I've never felt, or at least never felt that I felt, less than … Continue reading Being fat, Fab 5, and living in tension
Sometimes you can get what you want
When I was young, maybe in middle school, I remember telling my mom that I had prayed to God to give me patience. She said, "You don't want to do that." I asked, "Why not?" She said, "Because then God is going to give you a lot of opportunities to grow your patience." Last week … Continue reading Sometimes you can get what you want
F Words
It could be because I finished the fifth season of Grace and Frankie within the past 24 hours, or it could be the result of a series of revelations and realizations happening over the past 2 months. Whatever the reason, I find myself adopting a very “eff it” attitude. (I’m not effing it so much … Continue reading F Words
Easily Overwhelmed
I am easily overwhelmed by nature. Not like, being in nature overwhelms me - quite the opposite actually - but like, it is in my nature and comes naturally to me to be easily overwhelmed. Especially in situations where there is a lot of noise and people in a small space. I think it runs … Continue reading Easily Overwhelmed
Sorry Not Sorry
In December my family came to visit for Christmas. It was amazing. But it got off to a rocky start. The cabin they had rented had recently gone under some renovations, and the renovations weren't finished. It turned out okay in the end, but for the first 24 hours or so I fought the urge … Continue reading Sorry Not Sorry
I am not a failure
At the beginning of the month I had what I’m referring to as a breakdown. My version of a “breakdown” is characterized by an overwhelming and all consuming feeling of failure. Seemingly triggered by nothing in particular (although I’m suspecting pre-menstrual hormones might have something to do with the timing) I will start getting insecure … Continue reading I am not a failure
What We Remember
Over the past few days I read a book called Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah. It’s the story of a friendship that spans decades. The friends are two girls, then women, named Kate and Tully. Kate has a great family and modest goals. She wants to get married and have a family. She is suggestible … Continue reading What We Remember
